<3 U

2012-02-21T21:26:00.000+08:00

No one would believe my dreamjob is to be a casino dealer.
I could have hold on to this dream a year ago.
I would probably start my working life already.
I wouldnt be here then.
But.. for the future, just an excuse?
it's probably just lack of courage.

2012-02-17T01:11:00.001+08:00

I wouldnt bother talking in situation like this.
It will probably just piss me off further.
-.-
The walk rlly wasnt enough to cool me down.
Can't wait to go home tmr.
And have a new start next week!

2012-02-14T02:27:00.001+08:00

At least it's only my 19th lonely vday
Not 20th yet. hahaha
A reason to be happy?
Lol

2012-02-10T22:23:00.001+08:00

Tired week.
Even worse next week.
Why must everything cramp tgt :/
Actually some stuffs could have been prepared earlier.
my own fault i guess ><

And lonely vday. Not like it's the first.
It has always been.
but still sucky.

2012-02-05T14:20:00.002+08:00

I just want to end it.
Why must things be so difficult.
Dont ask me why. I cant answer.

2012-01-31T16:45:00.001+08:00

Life's getting boring again.
Why.. =/

2012-01-21T15:44:00.003+08:00

There you go. I'm blogging after you.
Hahaha.

Actually I have nothing much to blog.
Nothing rlly happened.
Been thinking alot about PEOPLE.
How..
Some people speaks and act so differently.
Some people who just seems to have mega low EQ.
Some people who would only look for you when they need something.
In short.. The horror. of humanity.
Then.. I think back.
How real I am while facing people. Or I should say. How real can I be.
There are nice people around of cos. but I guess we all tend to mull on those unhappy stuffs right
who in the right mind will think of happy things and smile to yourself

Nonetheless.. been in a rather good mood recently..
Not sure attributed to who, and what.
Okay, maybe I know. haha! (:
Till now.. I still think it's scary how people gets in and out of my life (and in and out of my heart/brain tooHAHA)
I tried holding on, until I found that it wasnt worth it at all, and i was but a fool all along. until it was all too tiring.
Now I'm just living my life as it is. Slightly working harder. (am i? at least im constantly doing my acct tut) hoping to get a cumulative 4.! ><
Thinking of exchange, thinking of where to get the money from, dont even know how to tell my parents I want to go -.- it's like a good 10k ?

unHappy CNY

2012-01-05T14:59:00.000+08:00

2012.
I hope someone would appear.
I hope the 4 will appear
I hope it will be a better year.

School starting soon.
Don't think it makes much difference to me. Probably just the sleeping time?
._.

2011-12-23T17:24:00.004+08:00

2011 is coming to an end
A year full of ups and downs I would say.
Started the year working.
It was a great experience, although sometimes people are really unreasonable.
and insane. I wont forget gaza -.-

then came Alvls results. which rlly gave me a shock.
I nvr expected something like this, or anything near.
Then.. I gave up my interest, and took a route for stable/good prospects.
Regret? at least not now.
For some unknown reasons, I chose NTU instead of NUS.

Before embarking on a new journey in life..
I took a trip to TW. it was my first leisure trip with friends.
An eyeopener, not exactly a rlllly enjoyable trip, but i still had fun.

I lost a friend.
Again and again, I ask myself why did I make the choice, that was of cos detrimental to me.
But I guess beneficial on a whole.
It's not that I regret. It's just....... ah nvm i cant describe in words

School life didnt start well due to lack of camps to attend.lolol
it's like the thing tht kickstart uni life right.
thankgod there was still hall foc. but i still hoped to have attended the others :/
Hall is where most of my uni friends are.
School is just normal, not tht it's bad. but unfortunately, i just cant click with people there. overly competitive and chiong, totally not me. then again, they are nice ppl. i know..
Time flies. then came exams.

December has got to be the worst month.
Surprisingly. cos usually thts the month i love.
apart from the start tht I've spent in genting, which was great.! (apart from smthg tht left quite a bad impression of you in me)
other than tht, the month sucks.
esp now.
with the mixed feelings from ih, results, and being sick
i know my results aint tht bad afterall.
but seriously. lets just compare with the nbs average, im below average.
fuck. dont tell me i shdnt be sad. fuck off.
and it's a month tht.. I'm losing yet another friend.
-.-

On a whole, 2011 really wasn't a good year.
I'm looking forward to 2012.
But.. I dunno what's there for me to look forward to.
It's not rlly a good day to do a year end post, in such a state of mind.
but whatever, i did it.

2011-12-22T22:36:00.002+08:00

Not physically expressing how i feel doesnt mean im not disappointed.
I know I'm not good.. but.. it's still demoralising.
>.<
and the thing is.. I can't share with anyone.
just stfu.

2011-12-16T15:05:00.001+08:00

Now.. It comes to the point tht..
I hope I can be left alone.
Give me some time. I will be back, fine.
How not fine can I be anyway -_-

2011-12-15T14:11:00.001+08:00

I never like birthday!
It's like a day for extra emoness.
-.-

2011-12-11T15:18:00.001+08:00

In a Just a few days.. the you in my life changed. I think I suck. ._.

2011-12-09T20:20:00.001+08:00

Conclusion: All guys are desperate. f off!

2011-12-09T16:26:00.001+08:00

thinking of it make me feel like crying.I was just like an idiot..? and so what do you treat me as?! wtf

2011-12-05T16:04:00.001+08:00

Genting is quite a boring place, but the trip was fun! RLLY! =D

Didnt I already make up my mind
Why did i go contradict myself again..?
=/

I so wanna know what went through your mind
if only my brain can selectively rmb the good stuff only.
I'm trying to alr actually..
it was erm. scary?

Feel like doing my yr end post.. but..
there's still 26 more days.
and.. there will be IHG, results, christmas to come.
I dont want to have 2 yr end entries. so lets wait..
i better have the blogging mood then

2011-12-01T23:51:00.001+08:00

Today officially marks the end of my Uni Sem 1.
I really dunno how I will do, Idk how the whole bell works
I only know...
I did put in effort (as compared to myself)

School life..
is ermmm.. not that my class is bad.
The people are nice, but i just cant clique with most of them?
As in.. I feel so out of place when people around me are discussing about extra qns, when I haven't do my tutorial
Then again, I realised.. maybe it's not just my class. it's just on a whole, the nbs life?
Knowing that people are starting to prepare for the next sem kills a part of me.
Hall life.
Mixed feelings.
I guess the most important about life in hall..is probably the freedom
And also, that's where I make friends in Uni.
Then again.. define friends. are they friends, or are they just.... slightly more than acquintance?
I really dunno.
No doubt I do enjoy hall life, sometimes I just ponder.. whats exactly there?
Do i rlly want to stay on? and can i?

argh.
shag today.
glad everything's over.
but thinking that this cycle will repeat again soon, for another 5 times, is just torturing.
Really mixed feelings.
Ohwell..

will do a proper year end post soon (:

2011-11-30T02:23:00.001+08:00

Wow. new blogger interface. looks erm weird though. but not toooo bad.haha!就好像没有力了谁来支持我啊been thinking alot again (As usual)it's so sweet seeing how some ppl put in so much effort for their certain someone.(:I'm waiting for my certain someone to enter my life too.Or maybe someone already present? lol nahhhh:{

2011-11-27T20:51:00.001+08:00

连自己都快照顾不好了。还想着帮其他人-.-

2011-11-27T20:23:00.001+08:00

Fuck. I rlly dunno why I'm crying. -.-

2011-11-27T03:43:00.002+08:00

"Do you ever get that feeling where you don’t wanna talk to anybody? You don’t wanna smile and you don’t want to fake being happy. But at the same time you don’t know exactly what’s wrong either. There isn’t a way to explain it to someone who doesn’t already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being alone never was. At least when you’re alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn’t anyone who won’t take ‘I don’t know’ for an answer. You feel the way you do just because. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait."
-viatumblr

Maybe I'm just tired.
Maybe it's PMS.
Maybe it's exam stress (doubt so, altho im rlly very unprepared for the next 2 papers)
Maybe...........
Honestly, I really dunno.
All I know is.. no one's here.

2011-11-25T05:51:00.002+08:00

Everytime at such hours. Esp if I'm alone. I will think alot.
I smile. Cause I know it can cover everything.
I hate to show ppl myself.
But I want people to understand me. (although I dunno how they will)
One day.. I will find you.
The one that will see through my smile
The one that will rmb me, just for the sake of remembering.

Talking to someone only when you're bored is the same as using tht person
You only know you like someone when even when you are at the busiest stage of your life, your mind never forgets her, and your heart is still with her.
I will probably know how I rlly feel too when I go to genting for tht short few days.
I kinda wonder, will you even realise I'm gone? Does it bother you?
And.. will you be around on..

不停的告诉自己不要抱有希望
因为没有希望就不会失望
=\

2011-11-21T05:25:00.000+08:00

The feeling is diminishing..
Good or bad?
Idk.

2011-11-19T02:37:00.002+08:00

I really dunno what you're thinking.
Actually.. I don't know what I'm thinking either.
If only.. things can be just so simple.
I think it's just me complicating matters =\
And nothing as such went past your mind.

2011-11-15T17:29:00.000+08:00

you asked who.
Irony?
-.-

2011-11-12T03:16:00.002+08:00

Completed one of my module
Spent my 11/11/11 with awesome ppl watching an awesome movie
okay la. i think tht it's nice. but not THT nice like how ppl describe?
And as much as I should be happy and satisfied about this (well-deserved?) break..
as usual.. in this very night, where I'm all alone again
(Brain overworking as usual..)
I just want someone here as well.

2011-11-05T23:19:00.001+08:00

Just a few weeks ago.. people were commenting on how I keep smiling to my phone. just a few weeks later, things changed so much -.-

2011-10-26T00:37:00.002+08:00

7 months only..
unforgettable memories.
I did nothing for you
But you did so much for me.
Thanks, and sorry.

why am i crying..

2011-10-16T17:30:00.003+08:00

Never once you were here when I needed someone.
Why should/ do I try so hard to be there for you?
You're zapping me energy and happiness away, giving me nothing in return.
Maybe you should just get out of my life?
but do I want that to happen?
WTF

2011-10-14T01:39:00.002+08:00

I hope I can tell you..
But I know I can't, and I won't
Actually.. I really dunno myself.
DAMNNNN.

i hope all these feelings will just pass quickly..

2011-09-28T00:16:00.002+08:00

Fuck my emoness.
When I was closing the window,
I just saw an old man, with a walking stick. walking slowly through the sudden heavy downpour.
With no shelter around, with no one around to help him either.
And with limited ability to run to the nearest shelter (which isn't near)
Not a single car who drove by bothered helping.
they are just so near, wtf. talk about humanity? wtf srsly.
I felt the tears coming.
And wtf am i emoing about?
I am so fortunate already. fuck.

2011-09-23T13:34:00.002+08:00

Shall refrain from using my tear glands.
(:

2011-09-17T20:02:00.002+08:00

damn! I dunno why all these emotions, mega unnecessary!

2011-09-14T23:03:00.002+08:00

I might be smiling more now.
But.. isit genuine?
:/
I want to get out of this whole recurring emotions
It's like I'm gonna break down soon.
And with no one around, I dunno how I stand up, again.

2011-09-02T22:40:00.002+08:00

Yes, i think alot.
I think too much
But i can't help it..

Been here for barely a month, but..
why so many negative feelings?
=/
When I thought everything's getting better, you kinda made me feel like an idiot.
You probably didn't mean it i know, but still... I felt it, so strongly, I really couldn't just ignore.
Thank goodness going for a jog can let me forget some stuffs. but not so effective this time though.

The bloodshot eyes, again.

2011-08-16T01:11:00.002+08:00

Not just cause of the good memory (=x)
I guess some stuff just can't be forgotten easily right.
Not saying anything doesn't mean that it's all gone.
Some stuffs will forever remain there.
Moreover, the world is so small. I almost can't believe my eyes, haha!

Uni started, and it's getting pretty stressed.
Like my second week haven't even started.
And omg, I'm already studying. SINCE WHEN THIS HAPPEN MAN! >.<
Nonetheless, enjoying hall life (:

Till then (:

2011-07-30T23:05:00.000+08:00

Gna move to the west tmr!
Kinda hate west side now, will get used I guess.
How I hope there was a uni in the east, I dont mind being stuck in the east for more than 20 yrs of my life!
Not like as if Im nt coming back home or anything
But Im gna spend 80% of my time all there
Will miss home, my parents. yes, and my sister of cos (cant scam my $$$ anymore YAY :P), and my BED!

Should rlly get a iphone and change to dataplan sooon! :D

2011-07-19T01:03:00.002+08:00

The only constant in life is change.
And all we can do is adapt.
Everyone know how, and can do it.
Just depends on whether one do it well.
Am i?

Time to rebuild my self confidence
As it hits to the bottom.

2011-07-18T00:10:00.001+08:00

Having one true friend beats having hundreds, or even thousands of superficial one.
But.. I think I'm still looking for you.

2011-07-12T00:00:00.000+08:00

2011-07-05T02:14:00.001+08:00

All done, all said.

But it lacked..
I didn't say we can't be friends.
Just the simplest, normal one will do.

2011-07-04T16:54:00.002+08:00

Somehow..
It just feel that I've sinned alot.
죄송합니다

Suddenly I was thinking what exactly was I upset about.
And I realised, I don't know, or I would say.. nothing.
That's kinda funny right.. lol
But I'm fine now.

Still taking my time to decide whether I should take up the offer to be exempted from econs.
Too mnay pros and cons.
Nonetheless, looking forward to school life where my brain cells wont be too free to think too much, haha

2011-07-03T19:12:00.002+08:00

Honestly, I feel much more 自在 now.
And I do like it this way (i think)
But it doesn't mean I'm happier, or happy at all.
I don't know what I want.
All I know is, I will get over it soon.

Surprisingly, password is the remedy.
Although thinking of you.. probably hurts million times more.
Dumb? Yes, i guess.

2011-07-01T23:43:00.001+08:00

since 2 yrs ago,
I strongly believe we rlly shouldnt give ppl the wrong idea, and lead them on.
THINKING tht they MIGHT get over it SOON.
and UNDERSTAND. and be just FRIENDS.
FACE IT, it's the truth. it's IMPOSSIBLE!

2011-06-27T01:38:00.001+08:00

We all should be contented with our lives.
Really..
More than often, we envy people around us, and they envy us back.
What a joke right.

No one's perfect.
Live your life your way (:

2011-06-26T19:16:00.003+08:00

Why bother to chase on to something that will eventually lead to nothing?
And when things changed, it will never be back to the same.

I'm not what you want, nor what you need.
And vice versa.

2011-06-26T13:19:00.003+08:00

It's tiring to force a smile out,
when it's hurting inside.

2011-06-25T16:25:00.000+08:00

The irony.

2011-06-23T04:58:00.000+08:00

it drew us apart..
but. maybe it isn't a bad thing afterall

2011-04-30T01:25:00.002+08:00

Feel stupid.

2011-04-27T13:35:00.000+08:00

I didn't defend myself.
Cause I thought resolving was more important.
ALthough I hate to take up responsibility for something I didn't commit.
It shall be.
What's the point anyway?
Fuck.

After super long consideration,
I gave him another chance
And, it's the LAST.

Hope my journey ends with Info, althought it's tiring, although there's ppl I awfully hope I can stay apart from.
But just end it at 2 at standing and 4 at TS.
yes. that's rlly just the number of days I've spent there respectively -.-

I'm not superwoman. And I don't aspire to be one.
Seriously.

2011-04-25T23:52:00.002+08:00

34 more days.!
Looking forward, definitely.
(:

Irritating much. -.-ll

2011-04-11T18:10:00.002+08:00

7 years. and counting.
I'm crazily insane.
Holding on to something that I had never possessed.
I can't and won't let go.
I will keep you there, in that special place.
Nonetheless, even up till now, I hope for more.

2011-03-28T23:31:00.002+08:00

没有希望，就不会失望
虽然是很胆小的做法
但至少能够保护自己

或许我高估了自己

或许我没有想象中的坚强
但又能如何呢？

2011-03-28T01:58:00.001+08:00

I guess I wouldn't have a good sleep tonight.
4 consec days aft which. ohmy..

NB.

2011-03-27T00:18:00.002+08:00

Thinking when is my turn to leave
It has been a great experience.
And now that everyone seems to be leaving..
But not just about that.. cos this is part and parcel and definitely there's new ppl also.. somemore EAST ppl.LOl!
BUT....
it's just getting more and more unhappy working.
When no mutual understanding is attained, it's hard to carry on working.
Taxing much. Hope to stay on till MAY end. (hopefully nothing triggers me to leave earlier than that.!) till i enjoy all that i can till Uni starts!

2011-03-18T18:45:00.002+08:00

I know you saw.
I hope you didnt. Not because.. of myself.
I just don't want you to be upset over it.
How I feel won't change. don't worry.

2011-03-17T00:39:00.001+08:00

Kinda pissed.

2011-03-09T00:19:00.002+08:00

Feel kinda upset about the sudden change
okay.. maybe nt very sudden.
Wish how things could haf stayed as it is..
Sense my sadness. :/

2011-02-28T20:15:00.003+08:00

SICK. and Tired.
Nose in pain >.<
Thanks alot for covering tmr(:
I know you are tired, I will help you too in future (if there's a need) BUT. not on the 4th, oops sorry =x I need to make alot of mental and emotional preparation
Healthy Cherry will be back, hopefully she get her voice back as well <:
But hopefully will recover fully this time round

Official news released today
"Release of 2010 GCE A-Level Examination Results on 4 March 2011

1The results of the 2010 Singapore-Cambridge GCE Advanced Level Examination will be released on Friday, 4 March 2011.

2School candidates may obtain their result slips from their respective schools from 2.30 pm on 4 March 2011. "
SCARY.! very.
sleepless nights approaching.

2011-02-23T00:27:00.002+08:00

Got tickets. Got RD!
Now all depends on the MOST crucial day of my education life alr.! hahaha!
HOPE ALL WILL BE FINE ._.

And If nothing goes wrong..I will be working until END OF MAY.!
Been a good experience so far i guess.
Watching how some people can be so crazy and stupid and rude.
While some people are really polite, and nice too.!
And of course the working environment is good, KIND OF.! (:

I miss JC life.!! I wanna be back with 20/09 sleeping through lectures and all :(
Rlly hope genting trip will be a success.
But.. LOOKING @ the replies i got..
Saddening much ._.BUT I WILL TRY..

2011-02-21T20:24:00.001+08:00

I will be responsible and go by the right way (:
Hopefully all goes well
Including my leave application + results too of cos.!

2011-02-18T22:38:00.003+08:00

Looking at that..
I wonder. Do you rmb u once know me as well?
Probably not.. I guess

It feels different.

14 days. SCARY MUCH. =/

2011-02-13T15:43:00.002+08:00

sucha bad day since the moment i opened my eyes in the morning
-.-

2011-02-06T22:41:00.004+08:00

I just cant stop the emotions from rushing up when I heard it.
But I guess I hid it well
I think I should stop harbouring such evil thoughts :/
I can't help it..
I hope by some time alone will coool it off. ._.

2011-02-02T23:50:00.002+08:00

(missed post on 3/2/2011)
HAPPY CNY.!

Sudden blogging mood. (but still.. i will keep my post short)
I'm still waiting for the day that I change all my password.

For some reason..
I feel bad. Cause I know clearly what I'm looking for.
Yet I still continue....
And worse still.. I read and read.. and I still feel the disappointment
Damn..!

2011-01-30T23:56:00.000+08:00

Need some time off for myself.
:/

2011-01-24T16:07:00.003+08:00

Now that we have officially started planning for our 10-days TW trip.
I'm beginning to feel excited (:
It's my first LEISURE trip overseas without my parents k.! hahaha!
then again, it's like all the way in JUNE..! I'm just worried that....
if... IF..... (i hope not.) BUT IF......
something goes wrong with my results, and my uni aint settled yet by then,
will i have the mood to go.? hmm.. what if... >.<

Anyway, time been going pretty fast now.
Work life is just barely acceptable, it would be much better if customer can get a little smarter, and less anal-.-
My poor voice is not recovering AT ALL.! some people just can get me shouting.!

CNY is coming..!! and i havent got any CNY clothes yet. OHWELLLLLL.. i dunnnnno whether i will be able to get any clothes in time la.! :/ i dont really care actuallllly!

Kinda miss schoollife.! Soon enough, I will be back, hopefulllly nothing goes wrong like I've said. I'm seriously damn scared that my 18-years of exam luck just abandoned me at the most important point. Then again, I miss schoollife with 20/09... >:

To whoever who understands:
Cherry is SHY, but FRIENDLY! (HAHAHAHA)

2011-01-19T20:28:00.001+08:00

So much for saying all that-.-
I feel retarded.

2011-01-19T00:20:00.002+08:00

Sorry.. it's not that I don't care
It's just difficult for me to express my concerns.
I'm just not like that.

I think i am ...
This is so not right I know. :/

2011-01-17T00:30:00.001+08:00

Broke my promise
It was all too much at one go :/

2011-01-10T19:22:00.002+08:00

HIdden opinion, hidden self
then whats the point.
:/

2011-01-09T00:47:00.003+08:00

Sometimes..I really wonder how strong am i really is.?
and.. is it really good to stay strong?
I feel like breaking down
I'm on the verge to..
or i did, secretly
Coming up with the pretence is even more tiring.

2011-01-03T13:35:00.002+08:00

I feel bad, I dunno why.?
But I shouldnt be...

Thanks for much for coming back.! I ALMOST DIED.!!!
I made the promise in my heart, I was sincere when I made the promise though :/

2010-12-27T17:03:00.001+08:00

Am I being too greedy?
Just let me enjoy it for awhile more ._.

2010-12-14T22:04:00.001+08:00

Truthfully..
It was kinda disappointing.
But I think I'm already used to it.!
:/

2010-12-01T13:10:00.000+08:00

There's many things I want to say, but can't
Sorry.

2010-11-25T23:13:00.000+08:00

I say once. I say twice, but i won't say thrice.
Cos.. it will be pointless then.

2010-11-18T12:50:00.003+08:00

I dreamt that I was shot to death. And i felt the pain. =/
(This person held me back on the road (for idk what stupid reasons)! I was super duper pissed and dared him to shoot me.. And he did -.-) what a dream! LOL. I dont mind dying though. =x

2010-10-30T23:17:00.002+08:00

RANDOM.. :P
things to do after As!

PROM
CHALET
SLEEP, REST, SLACK :D
FIND JOB AND WORK!! (Y)
SAVE $$$
buy iphone? MAYBE?
JOIN JING FC^^ (but alone weird ehhhhh! >:)
DRAMAS: beethoven virus is sure on the list,LOL! JANG GEUN SUK! not forgetting the most beloved HONGKONG DRAMAS! i swear they have the best plots lor omg!
GO TAIWANNNNNN! (that will be for next year though)

search for

2010-10-30T20:10:00.002+08:00

I really don't understand myself and what i want! :/
when __ was here, i found it irritating (kinda) and hope that I can just be alone.
but without, it feels as bad. why can't I just have it at the right time and "dosage"?
it's not a thing.

2010-10-20T15:02:00.001+08:00

I tried my best, but it was probably still very obvious
Sorry.

2010-10-16T22:48:00.001+08:00

Stop harping on it, it's getting irritating -.-

I've always wanted to say..

2010-09-22T21:58:00.002+08:00

Being "smarter" doesn't mean that I can't feel stress right?
Not that I really think that I'm smarter, it's just...
forget it. I don't wanna explain myself.

2010-09-11T20:29:00.002+08:00

Wont be surprised if I don't score well for Prelims!
Only got myself to blame =/
I PROMISE MYSELF I WILL WORKHARD FOR ALEVELS !!! =x

2010-09-03T23:38:00.002+08:00

Many times, I use "lol" and "haha" not genuinely, even if it's in CAPS.
It just helps to cover up my emotions.

2010-09-02T14:04:00.002+08:00

Today, i chanced upon a blog which I should had 2 years ago.
It does feel lame now. Then again, I don't think anyone of us ever regret what we had done.
The only regret is probably how things screwed up AFTER pop. and blogs escalated everything. That would probably the only thing I wanna change
Be it whether we are already forgotten or even remembered in the bad ways for life, it doesn't matter anymore.
For him, I have no comments, and will never agree with him.
But for you, I see that things are indeed going well, and hope it will continue to me(:

2010-08-07T21:51:00.001+08:00

I seriously don't know what am i feeling now.

1. I was astonished by the effort you gave. And not just that, there was this extra thing I was feeling. In the past, I will understand.. But now... things changed already.

2. My encouragement has been constantly received by you. But.. this time round, I'm in need of it too. And I really have no energy in continuing because.. I don't even know whether you find it irritating or what. Maybe.. I will be back. Maybe not.. =/ (I've read though.)

3. I still visit your site constantly, and I still dislike it when you are feeling unhappy. It's the wrong choice I took then i guess, if only.. I was abit more courageous? Smile please(:

truthfully 1, 2 and 3 are all for different people. Good for you if you can guess it. If you don't then just let it be.
then again, does anyone still visit here? :/

2010-08-04T17:43:00.002+08:00

cant believe i spent the whole day doing 1/4 of tutorial 1 and 3/4 of tutorial 2!
FREAKING SLOWWWW! >.<
i was thinking.. very soon.. ALEVELS will pass.
Idk how it will be like this time round, I hope i wont be disappointed again like 2 years ago, but then again.. confidence level seems to be even lower?

how i hope mine can be like yours too..
i wonder why i bother blogging here..

2010-07-28T20:44:00.002+08:00

Nothing is pleasing to all, I know!!
BUT HEY..! I'm already trying my best here, cant u ppl see?!
It's not like as if I'm THATTTTTT free okay.
I don't feel like bothering anymore too, but do i have a choice?

Everything will be over soon..
smile =/

2010-07-22T17:59:00.003+08:00

New timetable. TIRING, it really is.
All i can do is tell myself everything will be over SOON (:

Although there's nothing much to be happy about..
It's still my first time getting first^^
Together with it come stress though.

2010-07-16T22:23:00.002+08:00

i know i shdnt.. but cant help but really wonder...
have we went the wrong way right from the start, and rule out the most obvious, and seemingly impossible reason?

Nonetheless, i don't believe it either, and won't unless something/someone rlly prove me so. if it ever occur, it will probably send chill down my spine. i really hope that im just using too much of my "STUPID" braincells, and it's all untrue!

2010-07-08T20:05:00.003+08:00

JCT ended..
results are more or less in the expected range.
i still hope that i really can pass everything
please dont let me down econs..!
and luck pls stay with me for gp! (: HAHAHA

i will be there. (only as a friend of cos)
but who's here? ...
am i visible to you?

I don't like face-to-face communication(:

2010-06-29T23:18:00.002+08:00

midst of jct
KARMA OR WHAT?! ALONE FOR GP?! headache + nauseous during bio! never see the "2" in econs!which probably cost me a good 15 mins of my time!!!!!
and just when i decided to wear my specs very reluctantly for maths paper, it freaking spoiled?! but i got it fixed, DUH! if nt how would i be able to see nowwwww?! LOL
im sucha nice person, i even help a neighbour (THT I NEVER EVER TOK TO, NEITHER DO I WISH TO TALK TO) pick up his shirt tht dropped onto the floor while hanging... pls be nicer to be for subsequent papers, esp maths. AND SUBSEQUENT EXAMS TOO! ((:

2010-06-15T23:55:00.000+08:00

a new combination of h3f?
no comments.

2010-06-04T00:03:00.001+08:00

what happened to me?
i should not...........
i hate it but i cant stop it.
i'll try.. b4 things go rlly wrong..
sorry!

2010-05-30T20:35:00.002+08:00

1 month more to jct, I'll start studying soon =/

AND OMG
張芸京 IS DAMN CUTE, yes i know she's a female, BUT STILL.. :O

2010-05-06T18:01:00.001+08:00

i go to ur blog once in awhile.
i wonder if u visit mine.

2010-05-04T20:22:00.002+08:00

i didnt know 11 units are needed =/
nt tht i can get it anyway, but it was quite a good motivation and aim

=/

2010-04-19T17:06:00.000+08:00

life sucks, as of now..
you won't understand, or u aint even interested
so i shall not try anymore.